Michael Landon felt guilty over his troubled daughter: “If she didn’t exist, I wouldn’t feel all this pain”


Michael Landon is a true Hollywood legend, having starred in Bonanza and Little House on the Prairie, amongst other cult hits. Though he rose to fame quickly, his legacy will always be remembered.

A successful, if not topsy-turvy. life filled with action and memorable appearances in front of the camera, means Landon will never be forgotten. But, of course, the Hollywood star was far more than simply a face to be filmed or an on-screen persona.

Landon’s back-story is every bit as interesting as any one of his characters, while his intriguing private life isn’t nearly so dissected as it would probably have been were he alive and at the height of his fame today.

For example, did you know that Michael Landon had no fewer than nine children across three different marriages? And did you know that it was while acting in his capacity as a parent that he endured perhaps his most arduous challenge?

Well, all you Landon fans are in luck. Here’s all you need to know about one of the biggest starts of the last century!


Michael Landon was working as a gas station attendant in Los Angeles when his life changed forever. Talent agent Bob Raison picked him up, and before long, the boy born Eugene Orowitz had turned into Michael Landon. It was a name that people thought would better be suited for show business.

Today, well, every person who’s ever watched the classic shows on television knows exactly who he is.

Landon starred across several television series in the mid 1950’s before getting his big breakthrough role. He was eventually cast as Little Jose Cartwright on the iconic western television show Bonanza, spending a total of 14 years in the spotlight before the show was cancelled in 1973.

In 1956, he landed his first official role in an episode on the TV series Telephone Time. He also starred as Tom Dooley in the western The Legend of Tom Dooley, which ultimately led to the role of a lifetime, starring as Little Jose Cartwright on the iconic western show Bonanza.

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Fortunatly, Michael didn’t have to wait long for another huge gig. Next up was Little House on the Prairie, in which he starred as Charles Ingalls. The show was a massive success, with both Landon and the show itself being praised by both critics and the television audience. Many of his costars had their breakthrough roles on she show.

Little House on the Prairie became the second-longest role Landon had, and in 1979, he won a Golden Globe for Best actor in a television drama series. Little House also won several awards, including four Emmys and 16 additional nominations.

Passed away in 1991

Landon then reached what one could call legendary status following his role in the drama series Highway to Heaven. He was honored with a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame in 1984.

Yet for one so famous and so overwhelmingly popular, it seems as though he managed to keep a relatively low-profile when it came to his private life – at last compared to today’s hectic standards.

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Over the course of his life, Landon was actually married three times, and would father a total of nine children all told. Interestingly enough, by all accounts it seems one of the actor’s children, Cheryl Landon, provided him with one of the sternest challenges of his life.

Landon himself had opened up from time to time about the difficulties he faced during a troubled childhood. This ultimately led to him actively wanting to take TV roles where he could portray a strong family man.

Away from the silver-screen, Landon also made efforts to have a good relationship with all nine of his children. Mark Fraser Landon was his first kid – though he was his first wife’s, Dodie Levy-Fraser’s, son, and adopted by Michael. The same went for Josh Fraser Landon, who was also Dodie’s son and became Michael’s through adoption.

Landon also adopted further children when he married his second wife, Noe, and later added to his brood when he had his own biological children later on in his life. Reports state that Landon took care to treat his adopted kids exactly the same as the ones who shared his blood, and he even told PEOPLE once of Mark and Josh:

“I hate it when someone calls them ‘adopted’ …. They’re my sons — period.”

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It was his biological daughter, Cheryl, however, who offered perhaps the biggest challenge for Michael Landon’s in his role as a parent. In an interview with The Washington Post back in 1983, he talked openly about her problems with Miltown, a drug similar to Valium.

“I suspected it during her last two years of high school,” he said. “Then she went to the University of Arizona. And I used all the excuses; no matter what she told me I would believe because I wanted to believe.”

Things reached new levels of seriousness when Cheryl almost died of an overdose at the age of 19. Michael sent his daughter to rehab, from where she emerged several years later having overcome her addiction.

With Cheryl in the midst of battling her illness, Landon himself admitted to harbouring thoughts that caused him guilt later on. He told The Post: “You get very guilty about some of the feelings you have about your own child, one of which is, ‘I wish she did not exist’.

“‘If she didn’t exist, I wouldn’t feel all this pain.’”

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Tragically, in 1991, Landon was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and passed away a few months later at the age of 54.

Just a month following the diagnosis, the tumor on his pancreas had doubled in size and spread to his liver. He passed away July 1, 1991 with his wife Cindy Landon by his side.

Cheryl, meanwhile, cherished her father until the day he moved on. She even wrote a book I Promised My Dad: An Intimate Portrait of Michael Landon, which discusses their bond.

I don’t know about you, but I miss Michael Landon – they sure don’t make them like him anymore.

Were you a fan of Michael Landon’s over the years? Do you remember him as a family man who put smiles on people’s faces? Let us know your thoughts in the comments box.

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